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Guest Feature: Yemisi A. Ikuomola (II)

MY FIRST LOVE

PART 2

A MINUTE OF YOUR DAY

I hate to bother you with my thoughts like this
But I just cannot help the many questions that pop up
Who else would understand and appreciate them
If not the one involved?
Why this coming back together?
How did it happen?
Was it premeditated?
Was it planned?
Who initiated it?
Were we too hasty?
Did we think things through?
Are the feelings mutual and genuine?
Was there any emotional coercion?
Was there any guilt trip?
Did we take the best course of action?
On my part, I wonder:
Was it so easy for me to be in again? Definitely not
But I could not resist the truth any longer
I had it buried for too long, just needed to admit it to myself
What is your perception of me?
Do you sense genuine emotions or an adventurous mood?
Did you expect what you got? Did you get what you expected?
What are your own true motives?
Are you desirous of a lasting relationship or just in need of company?
Do you mean all you say and write?

My answer? We both had longings long buried
Which time never healed and fate only had one option:
To earth them at the appropriate time
My heart is so believing and trusting
That I think it might be playing tricks on me sometimes
Or am I just plain naïve about the issues of life?
All I can think of is that I feel love afresh!
If it is wrong, then I never want to be right
This is just so wonderful!

Like a young lady falling in love for the first time
I want to experience all that I missed in my youth
Passionate love
Elusive? I think not
If I can feel the way I feel then I am capable of genuine love again
I miss you greatly, I miss you every minute of the day
I wish I could have you in my arms always
Alas! You are thousands of miles away
But I know that very soon
We shall be together again
And that one day we shall be united forever
Pipe dream? I think not!
Whatever the mind can conceive is achievable
IF the feelings are mutual.

What bond of perfection to have a life from you within me
To give life to another of you
Then my love will be fulfilled
If all this is not love
Then I dare say that the dictionary is yet to be complete.

You came back and turned my world upside down, inside out
And I am loving every moment of it
Thoughts of you and our tomorrow keep me awake all night
I no longer dread it, but actually look forward to it
It feels good to have a positive scenario to ruminate about
I don’t know about you, but I want to spend the rest of my life with you
If we are on the same page, what is to stop us?
I love you and mean it with my whole being
Never felt like this before, never expressed it like this before
Never more positive, never more forward-looking
Go on my Love, tomorrow will be okay
If we keep on believing that what we have found
Is indeed true!

You are my First and True Love!
Thank you for coming back to me.

First written in October 2004
Updated October 2014

© Yemisi A. Ikuomola

Guest Feature: Yemisi A. Ikuomola

MY FIRST LOVE

PART 1

YESTERDAY, TODAY AND TOMORROW

Like a young lady falling in love for the first time
I find myself longing for him
The sound of his voice makes my heart merry
His laughter elicits joy in my heart
I could listen to him all day crooning in my ears
I wish I could make every minute with him an eternity.

The joy of reunion after decades have passed
To see how little has changed in the feelings
In fact, they are stronger and more meaningful
See how human attempt at separation is foiled
By the simple nature of love
I wonder now how I ever let go of you so easily
Naivety I put it down to, now I know better.

But wait a minute! We should not be here
But the pull of real love is something
No human power can stop
Once again, my First Love
He says he loves me and wants me back, for good
I believe him
It is also important what I feel.

At last I know that I am capable of real love
I can feel love
I can give love
I can share love
I can receive love
I can be loved!
Love is real
I am only human.

The pain of parting is awful, it is indescribable
The lump in the throat cannot be swallowed
But parting at some points is inevitable, albeit temporarily
But parting so soon after the reunion is painful
But duty beckons on both sides, obligations await us
Out of sight but very much together in the spirit
Human emotions have no physical boundaries
I would not restrict mine, once bitten, twice shy.

Once again, the longing for his voice becomes an obsession
Love, lust, infatuation? Call it whatever, Love is my definition!
I never knew I could write a poetry of love
Tear after tear; toss after toss, sleep has become elusive
I pick my pen and paper as the words well up in my head
I cannot control the flow, I write, I write
It is so fulfilling to put your thoughts on paper
I hope he gets to read it one day.

My First Love, you will always be my only Love
The only thought that will keep me going
Is of when I shall behold your physical face again
To touch your face, to see you smile
To throw your arms around me, to wipe my tears away
To lay my head of your chest and hear you tell me it is okay
To hear the sound of your snoring deep in sleep like a baby
To cuddle you in my arms and watch you toss and turn
In absolute serenity, you nestle your head snugly
Knowing the one who holds you cares deeply
Then I know we find comfort in each other’s arms
I long for such moments everyday
The memories linger sweetly
I face another long, lonely night
But with lovely thoughts of you I will be okay

First written in October 2004
Updated October 2014

© Yemisi A. Ikuomola